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Southern bell with black girl Aquarius sass... or something like that

  • 27th January
    2013
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sonofafieldnegro:

accras:

Actress Teyonah Parris arrives at the 19th Annual Screen Actors Guild Award. Posting for the incredible natural hair and style. Just beautiful.

We share our HS alma mater; that makes me happy.

I’ll be practicing this next weekend…

sonofafieldnegro:

accras:

Actress Teyonah Parris arrives at the 19th Annual Screen Actors Guild Award. Posting for the incredible natural hair and style. Just beautiful.

We share our HS alma mater; that makes me happy.

I’ll be practicing this next weekend…

(via kindredsmile)

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  • 1st September
    2012
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Moving Forward - Letting Go.

Hey Tumblrs,

This last few years of my life have been challenging, but the last six months of this year have been almost suffocating at times and I just wanted to share my story. Sorry, this is long…

When this summer started, it had been less than a month since I filed a harassment complaint against my employer and was dealing with the aftermath. He is verbally abusive towards women and has some insecurity issues he needs to work out himself, but I was not going to allow anyone to treat me like I was less than a person. Things were weird at work and I was just truly unhappy; I’ve always loved my work, but where I worked was becoming cancerous. I kept dragging myself in everyday just because I had to do so to survive. In truth I should have left my job three years ago, but I believed that I was the best place I can be given the circumstances of being a homeowner in a crappy market. Last March I cried for two hours on the way to work and at work because I believed I was truly trapped.

Some family health issues and several unexpected deaths also distracted and depressed me for the last few years. My boss being so shallow and insecure assumed my issues related to him, while he was some of the problem, I had much heavier things on my heart. In the last six months, I went from a person who never cried to crying unexpectedly several times a day and crying on the way to work and on the way home. (Thank you to everyone who was a shoulder virtually or on the phone and even those who didn’t know they were helping by sharing great jokes or stories with me). I was coping with the stress and anxiety with food more than ever and reached a number on the scale I had not ever seen before. I even took to occasionally eating foods that I hadn’t eaten in almost a decade in a poor attempt to cope. My therapy sessions just felt like the same story over and over and empty promises I made to myself to change, but I had created a trap for myself and surrounded myself in hopelessness.

Finally in July, I started feel sick and was having aches and pains down the left side of my body. I was just tired and wanted to sleep all the time. And even though I felt like I was dying, I felt like I was under a microscope at work, so I was sacrificing or delaying Dr’s appointments to finish projects at work. Finally, one day I could barely stand I was in so much pain, so I drove myself crying to the ER and spent the afternoon there. The pain permeated from my left side and my abdomen, back, arms and legs all hurt. I didn’t know if I was having kidney failure or heart attack or both. I was diagnosed with an internal infection that just really didn’t make sense; the very next day I was in the ER for almost 12 hours for chest pains. Turns out parts of my stomach lining had eaten away and was responsible for most of my pain and possibly the other infection. I realized that the stress of my job was making me sick or I was letting myself become sick by not taking care of myself. Those two days were a wake up call for me and I knew that I had to stop worrying about work and channel my stress differently and worry about me because I was literally going to die if I kept up the same way. I scheduled every doctor’s appointment on Earth and am still going for tests and followups as my doctors couldn’t find anything that caused my medical problems. I forgot to mention I was suffering 3-4 ocular migraines a week, so I am being tested for glaucoma in a week; like the first time I had one, I am pretty sure it is nothing.

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